Confidence ? I hate this thing..
Went out with a bunch of sgc peeps ytd.
Ate BBQ food at newtons circus.
Guess what? Disappointing !!
But apparently its because we ate from the wrong store =(
I didnt know theres actually so many BBQ food stores there.
Hahas but nvm, its already in my stomach so,
Whether or not its nice, irreversible !
But theres one funny thing,
Apparently, the sugarcane there is made of gold !!
Well, to be exact its the lemon HAHAS !
A cup of supercane costs $1.50 but one with lemon costs $2 LOLS !
And there I was, staring at the lemon and going hahhahhas -.-.
Went to watch whiteout after that,
Its alright lahs, it isn't sucky, neither is it really that great.
But kinda interesting.. So thats what a whiteout is.
Enuff to break your 2 fingers in just 2 seconds !
Luckily there isn't one in Singapore hahhahas !
Alright to the title's topic.
This thing you call confidence, you sure need hell lot of shit to master it.
Especially when you gone through a really huge failure before,
The thought about encountering the same things again makes you go.. AYEZZ.
Everyone falls, its just a matter or how high they fell from.
You can get back to track fast with a low one,
But what about one whom u fell so hard and hurt yourself so damn badly,
Can you still tell yourself so easily that,
Oh its nothing, I will succeed for sure next time.
I am afraid, very in fact.
I'm afraid history will repeat,
I'm afraid to bluff myself everyday again,
I'm afraid to suffer a big disappointment once again after putting in my all,
I'm afraid to fall.. And to mend the wounds once again.
What about everyone else?
So many afraids hahas, but I think its something encountered by most people.
I really admire those who can take things so easily.
I'm a simple minded person, yet things does not seems as simple as I thought.
Wahahas alright todays a really long rant !
I shall stop here =)
BYE !!
I'm starting to feel afraid,What will be my future like..?
I'm really tired..
When will all this end..?
Sunday, September 20, 2009 9:50 PM
